Be Still

I attended the Extraordinary Women's Conference in Tulsa this past weekend. The theme verse was Psalm 46:10 "Be still and know that I am God." Almost every speaker stood and talked about how difficult it was for them to "be still".  They talked about struggles in their lives and how they want to control the events and outcomes.

My confession: I'm a control freak who is borderline obsessive. If I get something on my mind I will think and rethink about it until I have examined that topic by every angle. A few years ago after 2 miscarriages I bought a basal body thermometer (BBT) and took my temperature religiously every morning for 3 months. I researched how to use this fertility tool best. I even took it to church camp and slept with it under my pillow so I could check my temp every morning and chart it. I could not control my body but I could figure out how it worked and use that knowledge to my advantage. I knew the exact date my second child was conceived and had a positive pregnancy test just 10 days after conception. More recently our dog died and I became convinced I wanted a Golden Retriever. I have spent hours looking through Humane Society, animal shelter and animal rescue groups websites and Facebook pages. When I get something on my mind I talk it to death. Being still is not an easy task.

I have been praying about a certain issue for over a year. A desire of my heart. Over the past year as I have prayed and read in God's Word I have heard the speaking of the Holy Spirit that I am to do nothing but wait and watch as God works. So I guess God sensed my restless spirit and sent me to a conference where I heard 5 different speakers expound on waiting on God. Five hours. "Be still and know that I am God."

So when it seems as though our world is going crazy- Be still and know that I am God
When we don't know who will be the next leader of our country but all the options are scary- Be still and know that I am God
When we know that God said He would never leave us or forsake us but we feel lonely and scared- Be still and know that I am God.

My God is on His Throne. He is in control. Sometimes he just needs me to sit down and shut up and watch Him work.